WHY AM I STARTING A NEW BLOG???

In 2014, I started a blog called Evielovesit. It was everything to me, it was fun, my hobby, my escape. But I was putting too much into it, praying that I would be this little instafamous plus size girl, copying the trends of others to fit into what made a good blogger. This in turn actually made me hate the fact I was plus size, LOL right!? I created the blog to make myself and others feel good and ended up hating myself, isn’t it ironic, don’t ya think? (sorrrryyyy couldn’t help myself).

Then in 2017, I decided to live on the Evielovesit name and begin vlogging my weekly life for my last term of my undergraduate degree at University. I wasn’t averse to creating videos as when I had created the written blog, I uploaded YouTube videos too, all about fashion, make-up and me. I look back on these now and they are CRINGGGEEEEEEEE. The make-up……… wow. Its just …. oh baby no. Like any 20-year-old, I was obsessed with trends (still am to be honest, aren’t we all?) and, mama, those sit-down videos were the hot tea in 2015! Though in 2017, I approached YouTube in a very different way. This was a documentation of my final term at University. I thank myself so unbelievably much for doing this, because when the going gets tough I watch these 10 minute videos of sheer bliss and remind myself of the time I was my happiest.

However, it was with a twinge of sadness of how these videos, and ultimately Evielovesit, came to an end. I have depression and anxiety and during 2017/2018 it was the worst it’s ever been. I won’t go into it now because it deserves its own thought out and dedicated post. But due to this horrible and life altering illness, I just couldn’t deal with the upkeep of a vlogging channel, a blog and a master’s degree. So, without a word, announcement or fanfare, Evielovesit was gone. It totally was the right decision for me at the time, but still makes me a little sad.

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So why am I starting a new blog? Well, my lovelies, I am at a crossroads in my life. I’m newly single after being in a relationship for four and a half years. I’ve finished my masters. I’m doing a job I absolutely love. And I finally feel a bit of disconnect from my mental illness. I feel ready to explore new avenues in my life that weren’t set out for me when I was in a relationship. It was the good job, mortgage, 2 kids, semi-detached destiny ya know? But what am I going to do now? The world has literally been turned, flipped, and twisted upside down. A year ago me would have gone into an absolute meltdown, overwhelmed with the possibilities of what is going to happen. But now I feel strangely calm!?!?! Ready to go with the flow and explore things that will actually make me happy instead of pressuring myself to have the ‘perfect life’. Of course, I’m terrified of dying alone HA! But I just need to keep telling myself I’m 24, not 84. There’s 84 y/o people that change their life into something new without hesitation so what’s stopping me?

Blogging, seems to me, to be the perfect way that I can explore new passions and interests in my life. I would LOVE to be a professional make-up artist. Make-up is a relatively new passion of mine as I didn’t start wearing it until I was 20, but it’s taken over my life. I think it’s the coolest thing ever. And to mix it with my life-long love of fashion, it makes me feel like I can conquer anything. I believe it’s so true that with a bit of lippy on, anyone can feel unstoppable. So, to blog about these great loves of mine will be invaluable to me and I hope will inspire anyone engaging with my content! I also hope to use my blog as almost a diary. Tell you what it’s like to be plus size and dating, discuss my mental health and any stories of womanhood that are shied away from in the public domain. I want this blog to be honest, real and totally me.

So, I hope you feel excited and engaged with what is about to come!? Because I really do! x